Today was a reality check of an undesired direction I’m headed in. I didn’t go into the office due to the weather situation, so we got stuck in work apartment. I basically barely did anything physical today. I spent the majority of the day sitting on the couch in front of the television or my laptop. I didn’t do much tending to my child even. My mother (who usually stays with me whether I’m in my home home or work apartment) pretty much did everything for my child. I got her dressed and put milk in a bottle twice. I took her out to the the snow for about 10 minutes. That was it.
The most action I took today was cooking. I spent around 45 minutes in the kitchen prepping 2 casserole dishes, and by the time I sat back down, I was exhausted and my knees were aching. After that, I barely got back up for more than 5 minutes at a time. In retrospect, what I’m most upset about is I had a day off and I barely played with my baby. She has a lot of energy and is all over the place. My mom is great with her, she’ll get on her hands and knees and pretend to be a horsey or doggie. It’s really hard for me to do that.
I also barely flinched when she tried to unroll a whole roll of paper towels in the living room. She also knocked over a coffee mug full of coffee because I wasn’t fast enough to grab her hand.
My mother relayed to me that my brother said if I continue on this path in one year I won’t be able to walk anymore.